I went to bed angry last night. I woke up still angry this morning. I know I have to really give some thought to what I am doing and I don't want to. LOL.
I opened my Etsy shop in 2007. Almost 2 years later I only have 42 sales. That does not bother me too awfully badly because I am the first to realized and admit my type of work does not appeal to everyone. There is a particular niche of people that wear the type of beadweaving I do. I have been doing alot of reading on turning your craft into a business that you can support yourself on and the one message that keeps coming through all of it is there is a very small chance of supporting yourself with your jewelry making because so, so many people are doing it. I have been looking for summer time craft shows in my local area, I did craft shows for 20 years with reasonable success. 80% of the local shows say they are full or accepting accplications in every area EXCept jewelry, they have enough vendors doing jewelry. I had someone approach me and ask me if I would be interested in doing a series of shows this summer for a organization that was holding them. I got excited only to find they wanted me to showcase my Avon fundraising. Which is wonderful, I could use alot more Avon customers but....they already had enough Jewelry Venders. Got a call last night that I was waiting for for a show I have done for many, many years, found out there is still time to apply for the show "as long as I am not selling jewelry, they already have too many booked selling jewelry.
I am so frustrated, angry, I am writing this in the morning and mornings are tough for me. The first few hours I am up the pain is unreal. It takes a long while of sitting quietly waiting for meds to kick in, Coffee to kick in, before the pain eases up to the point I can be productive and now I am just sooo lost. If I beleive everything that I have stated above, I have to rethink what I am doing. How do I turn this around , what can I do with my beads that is going to be more of a benefit. I have pushed this so hard just to ... not even make a living, just be able to pay the monthly bills on basic house hold expenses.
I guess there is no real point to this other than to vent. I am so angry, all I want to do is be able to take care of myself. I don't ask for much out of life. just the basics we all deserve. a roof over my head, electricity for light and heat. My cable, I guess I could live without cable but I don't want to, the TV, and internet get me through the day because we all need something to keep our minds active, the phone, well these day's how do we live without one?
Any way, I have vented. If you have any ideas' of something different I can do with my beadwork that would better my ability to create an income, please, please, let me know, I would love any ideas, input, advise.