Monday, May 8, 2017

Rain, Flowers, and other nonsense

Greetings my friends!  I know the picture of this silly little peanut got ya !  This is my great grandbaby Catherine, she is 16 months now.  Holy Cow!!!  Seems like the older I get the faster our days go by.  I am sitting here watching rain drops out the window and wondering...we had non stop rain all April Long.  It is May 8 and it's still raining.  Come on May flowers, enough is enough with the waterworks. 

Just thought I would do a little catch up.  Still dealing with trying to feel better but at this point I am beginning to realize that this is my new normal and I need to just deal with it and feel blessed that I can still do as much as I do.
I haven't done a great deal of beadwork.  I am not sure specifically why, I know my eyes are getting worse every day, my hands are aching but I think it is more a mental thing than physical.  I just don't feel like it ! 
I am playing with my polymer clay.  I really wish I could discover how to get better with it , or should I say, more professional looking.  it's just so much fun sometimes.  My 4 year old grandbaby and I are making a fairy garden so I made a Fairy house over a large glass jar to rule the gardens

This was so much fun and I kept wanting to add more and more little things to it and finally had to say to myself..Hey Deb, this is going to sit outdoors in heat and rain , again, enough is enough.  At least for my first try LOL.

I have spent a lot of time studying some groups who do manifesting.  I like the principal and am doing some of the exercises like journaling the things I am thankful for and the blessings in my life.  I think it is a good exercise just to keep me in the proper mental state of not feeling sorry for myself for what I lack but being thankful for what I do have in my life.  It just kind of puts things into perspective. 

Last but not least I am spending a great deal of time devoting some learning to our Avon business.  I am pretty sure I told you I am teaching my oldest granddaughter so that she can learn to have an income while still being home with that little who at the top.  During this I had to really think about why I do this because we have very few loyal customers.  But I realize that I have sold Avon on and off for about 35 years, I have never had a lot of customers but always had a loyal handful and the reason I keep coming back to it is because I love Avon products, I love the fact that Avon gives in a big way to Breast Cancer Research and Domestic Violence awareness.  I also truly believe that for the people that will get out on the streets everyday and meet people and share the product you really can make a living.  I never have but I retain the dream.  Any way I am spending a lot of time enticing people to check out our online store because getting more customers in the online shop is even more time my grand can devote her time to the baby.  Not to mention we are still trying to create enough income to pay our basic living expenses and make up for what my medical malfunctions have taken from me.  
The great part of having the online store is that anyone can be our customer living anywhere in the world.   If you know of any one that would be interested I will as I always do ask you to share our link.

So these things are what have been keeping me busy and my mind off the fact that I still don't feel as good as I think I should.  I am going out walking every single day, rain or shine, just to feel like I am accomplishing some sense of physical activity and I am sure it is helping in a small way,  I think once the weather is a little bit nicer if I make myself increase my walk each week that will be a good thing. 
Hoping we all see those May flowers soon, have a great week!

Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Months fly by

Greetings my friends!  I will never understand why I let so much time go by without coming in to post something.  Believe me my life has just enough going on where I could share something every few weeks but, I just get caught up in things.  Any way, Last November I ended up having a 2nd intestinal surgery.  Initially it was supposed to be putting me back together and getting rid of the Ostomy.  Did not work out really well, my intestinal disease is too far gone and I ended up losing some more of my large intestine and having the temporary colostomy remade into a permanent one.  Well, I guess I don't have to wonder any more, this is my life.  Recovery has been a very slow process this time, I think that is a big part of the reason I am not getting much done.  I am extremely fatigued all the time.  I often can not even work up the energy to pick up my needle and play with my beads.  Now that is bad.  So obviously, I am not getting much work done.  The worst part is that I can't stand not being active and involved in things so to seemingly watch myself not able to do anything is very frustrating.  I am doing a lot of reading and everything tells me to just be patient because recovery from this surgery at my age takes a long time.  Okay I will try but my patience is growing short.  Then we deal with the eating issues.  I am on a high protein, low residue, low carb, low fiber diet.  I have a long list of things I can not eat.  Some of them are forever, things like my absolute favorite foods such as nuts and seeds.  I cannot have any meat that cannot be cooked to the point of falling apart so I can have a Hamburg because it is already ground up but a steak is too fibrous.  I cannot have any fruit or vegetable that has skin or seeds.  Almost all my fruit and vegetables have to be cooked to mush.  I walk into the store and pick up a tomato and just stare at , maybe smell it and my mouth waters.  Of course I can take that tomato home and blanche it to remove the skin and scoop out the seeds.  But does that make you want a beautiful tomato sandwich?  Nope !  There are many things I can try adding into my diet slowly, one at a time.  Of course the things I love most aren't being accepted well.  I love the oddball stuff.  The Lima Beans and Brussels Sprouts. I love broccoli and I love beans.  Last week I found a recipe using grated cauliflower and I had to try it because I love cauliflower.  Grated...right down to tiny little specks and within half hour of eating the tasty outcome my intestines let me know we cannot have our cauliflower back.  One of the highlights of my day....a smoothie.  My daughter gave me a nutribullet about a year ago.  It does a great job of disintegrating my fruit into pure liquid so every day at some point I make a big, satisfying smoothie.  Lots of fruit, my daily yogurt, some good juice or almond milk.  Sounds great right?'s putting pounds on me.  natural sugar be damned the sugars in the fruit and juice are making me fat. 

This journey is not going to be easy.  The only thing I have on my side is that I am tough.  I will not give in.  Once our winter weather breaks I can do a little more to help myself and sooner or later I will defeat the fatigue, the hunger, the bad mood.  Hope everyone is doing well, I promise to try and come back sooner than 4 months from now.